Hi guys, and happy Tuesday. Today I have a new blog tour today and I can see that I missed my actual stop yesterday, though I can promise you anything that I was sure I was scheduled for today – at least this is what I’ve noted down in my calendar. But oh well, yesterday or today, I have an extract from Emma Rathbone’s funny and sharp novel “Losing It” – hope you enjoy!
I opened a drawer and took out a pencil and started scribbling on a Post-it note, trying to see how dark I could make it. Jessica Seever came in and poured herself into the chair across from me. She worked at the front desk and was my only friend at the office.
“Crazy night,” she said, referring to the previous evening.
We’d gone to a bar together and sat in uncomfortable silence until her new boyfriend showed up. Then they’d had a theatrical fight that they both seemed to enjoy.
“Kidman does like you,” she said. Kidman was her boyfriend.
“Okay,” I said nonchalantly, “sure.” I opened a folder on my computer, suddenly finding, with Jessica’s presence, the will to work on the spreadsheet.
“I’m actually—” I pointed at the screen with my pencil.
“Things just got a little out of hand,” she said, proud of herself.
“Look, it was me.” She put her hand on her chest. “I started it. I always do! It’s like Kidman says, I get some tequila in me, I go crazy.”
“Right,” I said.
“He’s like, ‘You’re crazy, girl!’”
The first time we’d met, Kidman had barely acknowledged me, and then spent the whole night flirting with Jessica and looking around like he was really restless. Jessica and I were friends due to the fact that we were both unmarried and roughly the same age and had immediately established a mutual dislike of squirt-out hand sanitizer, which had not, in the end, reaped the conversational dividends I had hoped for. We spent a lot of time together poking at our drinks with our straws. She liked to say things and then gauge my reaction for approval or admiration.
“You know what they say,” she said, tracing the arm of her chair. “Make-up sex is the best.” Her eyes roamed over my face.
“Totally,” I said.
“After you left we went out to his friend’s apartment complex—have you ever done it in a pool?”
“Yes,” I said. “A bunch of times.”
In about four hours I would go back home to my apartment, microwave a dinner that would burn the top of my mouth, then float facedown on the Internet for a while before going to bed even though I wasn’t tired.
“We were, like, up against one of those, like, floating things, with the tube? It was shaped like a turtle?”
“A pool cleaner?” I said.
“I guess. But he was behind me, and I was holding on to a ledge.
We were in that position? And it kept bumping into his back and he was like, ‘Get it away!’ and I was like, ‘Threesome!’ And he was like, ‘You are so bad.’”
“Yikes,” I said to Jessica, trying to muster the same wry glint in my eyes.
“So good,” said Jessica. “So hot.” She looked at me for a reaction.
I swiveled around and stared at the empty town center. Sometimes, thinking about those two—Kimmy and Jason—I felt a sense of loss in my own life so drastic it was like the wind was knocked out of me.
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