Mine by Susi Fox
Publishing Date: 14th June 2018
Source: Received from the publisher in return for an honest review, thank you!
Number of pages: 464
Genre: Mystery, Psychological Thriller
The baby in the cot is not your baby. You wake up alone after an emergency caesarean, desperate to see your child. But when you are shown the small infant, a terrible thought seizes you: this baby is not mine.
They say you’re delusional.
No one believes you. Not the nurses, your father or even your own husband. They say you’re confused. Dangerous.
But you’re a doctor – you know how easily mistakes can be made. Or even deliberate ones.
Everyone is against you; do you trust your instincts? Or is your traumatic past clouding your judgement? You know only one thing.
You must find your baby.
Sasha Moloney has to undergo an emergency c- section under general anaesthesia. She has longed for her own child for a long time and after a couple of miscarriages she has finally got pregnant and now this c – section at 35 weeks pregnant after being involved in an accident. As soon as she lays eyes on her newborn, she knows it – she is sure that he’s not her baby! However, when she raises this concern, nobody believes her: not her father, not her husband, not the medical staff and soon she’s labelled as mentally unstable. But Sasha, a doctor herself, a pathologist, knows how easy it is to make a mistake and then refuse to own up to it, so she’s desperate to prove that she’s not mistaken. But is it really a mistake? Or is Sasha really losing her mind?
The characters in this book were not the most likeable ones and I think it comes from the fact that I couldn’t trust any of them, no matter if it was Sasha’s family or friends or the personal working in the hospital. They all felt so hostile and unfriendly, as if they themselves didn’t trust each other. They lied and kept secrets, no matter if they were wife and husband or best friends. However, they were well developed and the way the story was told, in alternating perspectives of Mark and Sasha, however focusing mostly on Sasha’s point of view, gave a great insight into their minds, we got to know them and what made them tick. Although I must admit that I was expecting something very unexpected from Mark – those flashbacks to his past were irregular – it just made me think there is something really bigger coming from him. I also found him very weak and couldn’t find any empathy for him to be honest.
Somehow, at the beginning, it was hard to get into the story, although I can’t tell you exactly why. Maybe because it felt very clinical and dry, and also I am not sure how things in the hospitals work, especially with admitting to closed wards but I had a feeling that we are back to times when you have no rights as a patient and the doctors could decide about you being admitted or released without a particular reason. Also, I had a feeling that Sasha was being very poorly informed about her condition, that the doctors and nurses didn’t want to give her any information, and really, it was no wonder she was feeling the way she felt because I was starting to feel exactly the same – desperate, disbelief and I started to doubt my own mental health as well. However, there came a moment that the book started to be impossible to put away, and I raced through the second half in a few hours.
The author, Susi Fox, has a medical background, so the story is really well researched and very convincing – except for the feel as if took place in an asylum and not a normal, everyday hospital, there were so many understatements and secrets, I’d go crazy if I were to be a patient in this place – and she really knew how to tackle this very controversial topics that she’s decided to write about, such as miscarriages, mental health, infertility, rape. Yes, some very heavy issues, I agree, but overall, even though it is a rather dark read, it’s not overwhelming and while it’s going to leave you thinking, it’s not going to leave you feel depressed.
“Mine” felt claustrophobic and I had a feeling that there is one huge conspiracy somewhere between the walls of the hospital. It is this kind of read where you stop to trust the characters and start to suspect them all, and I’ve also started to doubt in Sasha as well. At the end I think I Osuspected every single character that appeared on the pages of this book and really wasn’t sure whom I shall trust. The author has really well known how to play with my mind – one moment I was absolutely on Sasha’s side, and the second I was wondering if there is something wrong with her. Those mind plays were a great thing, it’s such a refreshing thing to read a book when you really can’t guess the outcome.
As much as I am for happy endings and happily – ever – afters, I think that this time the ending was a little too anti – climax. It was too rushed in comparison to the whole story. The journey to this end was full of tension and guessing games and probably this is why I was expecting something totally different – what, I’m not sure but it somehow just didn’t hit me and didn’t fit the whole story. However, it didn’t spoil the book, and I really enjoyed this psychological thriller that kept me on the edge of my seat.
“Mine” was a totally unpredictable read, with twists and turns that I haven’t seen coming. Very emotional and this kind of book that makes you think and put yourself in the characters’ shoes, wondering what you would do. It was a read with a difference, unique and daring and controversial, exploring emotional and fraught territories and crossing the boundaries. I am already looking forward to next Susi Fox’s read. In the meantime, I highly recommend this debut novel of hers.
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